IT WOULD BE TOO EASY...

It would be too easy 

to take those little pills,
to escape into the wild, blue yonder of oblivion
forever.
It would be too easy
to grasp the handle
of the sharp carving knife
and watch with tunnel-filled eyes
as the blood pools around me.
It would be too easy
to vibrate with the click of metal,
of five inches
away from death.
It would be too easy
to defy gravity
for one milisecond
before thrust toward earth,
second thoughts left on the windowledge.

But I don't do "Easy"
I DON'T DO EASY!
'Cause that kinda "easy" is
weak.
And I'm not weak!
I'm unique!
I have an invaluable gift to share with all!
I have so much to contribute to the world!
I AM a family, even if it's a family of one!
I am ALL good, not "no good"!
I am loved by Creator and Earth Mother!
For this,
I will never quit!
I may die,
but not now~ 

--- GWEN WATSON LAMBERT ---